I just threw up everything I ate.

This is getting very frustrating.

ETA: Everything I ate = the soup of my ban mian + 6 ikan bilis and maybe 2 strands of some unidentifiable green veg.

Been trying to stuff food down my throat to no avail. The sight of food makes me want to throw up seriously.

Maybe I will die a slow and painful death from hunger - should make some of you very happy.

Bryant [ Son Of Victoria ] says:
lol
siao lor
think 2 sms can heal the world
why not send me 1 more then we can save african kids also

Okay my gastric pain is so bad I think I’m gonna die.

I never quite got my appetite back after the weekend. Yesterday I didn’t feel like eating at all and by the time I finally decided to eat at 10ish pm, I gave up after two bites. This morning, it’s been four hours and I barely drank 20% of my teh peng. I’m taking it as divine intervention to help me shrink my eating capacity so I can’t overindulge during my birthday period. Or perhaps I am on the way to gaining enlightenment. Either way, it’s good.

Work’s a bitch but life goes on.

“why you suddenly bring up this housing issue? oh! i forgot about your dream 2nd-storey unit at little india!”

post edited at 7 Sept 1:33PM:

Although I owe no one any apology, I’ve decided to drop everything. Sure, I can go on about how the insults don’t make any sense, incorrect usage of certain words and how childish people can get at this age - but what’s the point really?

I had never once harbored ill intentions nor thought of using my blog to provoke anyone. If you have been a reader of this space, you would know that I often post interesting fun facts I find online or snippets of my everyday conversations with people close to me. It does get a bit hard sometimes to find a balance as more people know about my blog.

It is not because of guilt, I still firmly stand by my viewpoints but I’ve decided I don’t wish to evoke any negative feelings in anyone when it was not my intention to do so. Maybe if I was still 15 I would continue with this [I can be good with words haha] but honestly, we are in our twenties now, shouldn’t we focus on the better things in our lives?

I want to keep this space happy, where people read because they are genuinely concerned about my life and because fatbear/ my daily silly anecdotes interest them

If anything here or in my life makes you bitter, then perhaps you should reflect why. I personally find this world much more bearable when we concentrate on our loved ones and are less quick-tempered. It’s much easier to clarify than to get angry and feel stupid later cause you’ve gotten angry over nothing. Assumptions get us nowhere in life really.

This whole episode has also made me realize that while there are those people you meet in life who can’t wait for you to fall and then trample on you when you’re down, there are also close darlings who’ll always be there for you. I love you guys very much! xxx

I’m going to close this chapter alongside some other chapters of my life and there’s so much more to life than this - yacht trip this weekend, Red Mango next week in Bangkok, fatbear getting his Harley jacket and being renamed to badassbear and the amazing changes coming along at ClubCouture to name a few.

So have a great short week folks. I’m gonna get my lashes done, get bangs perhaps and wait for g’s return on Friday

much love.

it’s 1:28am and i really ought to sleep soon or i’d be totally zombie-fied tomorrow like how we all were last monday. but i don’t really want to forget these sweet memories so here’s a quick summary:

g and i slip into mambo jumbo fatbear talk sometimes [e.g. here & here] and the latest to make me smile-
he: i wanna swap places with fatbear
me: err i don’t think fatbear knows how to operate an aircraft.

5 more days till he’s back, can’t hardly wait xxx

and the world’s so small. i was facebook messaging someone re clubcouture stuff and it turns out that her husband is g’s colleague. i like it when we talk to people for the first time and you end up all happy cause things just fall nicely into place somehow

also, i met up with the ptbs on sunday again at serangoon gardens again. all living around the area! anyway pow sing was fun [they have valet parking now!], rk was random [teh o ais limau] and ktv was as usual, an eye-opener for me. they actually have waka waka lol. i wound up asking “who is he?” when they played some peng you song and joanne was like “zhou hua jian, how can you not know?” and we came to the conclusion that he sings in a very fei yu qing manner in that mv. “you know, like praying to the birds, praying to the flowers?”

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okay i know i don’t really make much sense, i think i sound quite delirious actually. but in short, i’ve had a good day and i love you peeps. xoxoxo

night world, going to crash now.

1. Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

4. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.

5. Pay off your credit cards every month.

6. You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

7. Cry with someone. It’s more healing than crying alone.

8. It’s OK to get angry with God. He can take it.

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11. Make peace with your past so it won’t screw up the present.

12. It’s OK to let your children see you cry.

13. Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn’t be in it.

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don’t worry; God never blinks.

16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

17. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.

18. Whatever doesn’t kill you really does make you stronger.

19. It’s never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don’t take no for an answer.

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don’t save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now. Don’t wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ‘In five years, will this matter?’

27. Always choose life.

28. Forgive everyone everything.

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

33. Believe in miracles.

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn’t do.

35. Don’t audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

36. Growing old beats the alternative — dying young.

37. Your children get only one childhood.

38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else’s, we’d grab ours back.

41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

42. The best is yet to come.

43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

44. Yield.

45. Life isn’t tied with a bow, but it’s still a gift.

Written By Regina Brett. Source.

i posted this sometime in july last year, and came across it while spring cleaning my blog archives. it’s been a year, the lessons that matter most to me [in bold] have probably changed since then, but hold these close to your heart and life would definitely be better

and my personal favorite, everything happens for a reason. sometimes we might only realize the reason weeks, months or years later but wait and you’ll see.

when i was little, my dad used to bring me out for hotcakes breakfasts on sundays after my swimming class. either that, or he’d buy each of us a stick of potong icecream [sweet corn for me, red bean for him] and we’d walk home happily from the pool.

today i had hotcakes delivered cause it was raining and shared them with my daddy. and as i served him the pancakes with maple syrup, i can’t help but notice that daddy’s getting old